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Tis a good weekend to be in PA with Jay and Dayna. It has been a good long time since seeing him and I find that we havent even missed a beat with each other. His parent's house is also extremly comfy and makes for an excellent sleep too (thanks). I am right now resting while getting ready for the rest of the day.

Jay and Dayna will be getting married in Feb and I am one of the groomsmen and so we are getting together to get the tuxes and all together. THis should be fun as I havnet been in a wedding since Trev and Toia last year, but should make for some fun regardless :)

Right now I am also playing a game on my palm that I am finishing up a review on. It is called Ultimate Bowling Fighter and is sold thru Astraware. Its a really kool game and one that relaly allows for some time to just sit and chill while soaking in the world around me some. There have been a few games on my palm that I have played like that lately, and it has made for a bit of fun on my end. Suduko is another one, and I find that desipte its simple nature, its way to hard and a lot of fun.

Well, thats all for the quite journaling for now. Have a good one and see ya in a few days when I get to write on something a bite more fun :D Read More

What is the given time that one should take for reshaping their mind and heart? Or rather, how much longer do I want to stay in the curernt mindset that I am in before deciding to walk the way that best prospers me and those around me? Tis a question that I do ask often, and today I keep it in teh abck of my mind as I sit with emails about designing new sites, fixing current ones, and adding content still to others. How long until I am able to realize the "ah ha" of wanting to change the way people look at and use the net? Who knows but God really, but I can take from the Word as usual that as I seek Him first and fully rely on Him for my joy, He will perfect/perform/accomplish those things that concern me (Psalm 138:8). Read More

Probably one of the best and worst things that I have heard over the past year has been that I do what I like to do for a living. I do. I do website design and development. I have learned about how to work with a team, content management systems, dynamic webpages, and even competition between designers (good and bad). Its been good. And at the same time, its been crazy. I dont have enough hair to say that I this job would make me pull it out, but there are many times a week where I wonder if I really am doing what I like to do at teh expense of my own sanity.

This week I was blessed by forming a partnership with LaRosa of Jesus 4 Life Ministries. Its quite kool as this friendship and partnership is a lot like the one that I have enjoyed with Damond (On the Verge Entertainment) throughout the years. As I am waiting and watching things unfold, I am wondering if my day to day is just taking the passion out of taking Christ to the net connected culture.

I come home tired (mentally more than anything). And there is yet things to do at home. And at the same time, I get just a few moments of "me" time where I can really just let go and let my mind and heart flow. There are websites that are unfnished on my computer for that reason. Shoot, MMM is unfinished on my local for that reason. I just dont feel encouraged/empowered after a day of grinding to continue to plow and till the ground with the gifts that I have been given.

The refuge though has been my car. Between some neat backroads and the occasional 95 @ 80 run, there is this time in worship that I have had in the car that does spark me. If for nothing else, it makes gettin worn out kinda fun since I get to go to Him in peace. Its what I do.

Right now I am getting ready to head home. Some quiet time and maybe a game of NBA LIve to ease teh brain some. With the night so early now, biking is less of an option (at least down busy Route 1). I'll figure something else out as I need something physical after work. But its good. I do what I like and this is preparing time. From here, who knows. I just want to change the world to see God's heart for us (especially on the net). Read More

I sent this to be posted at Palm Addict, but thought it well to share here as well:

Hello to all at Palm Addict; I have to admit that it is always too long in between my writings to Palm Addict. Between Mobile Ministry Magazine and an increasing work load, I am finding it harder than I want to be in keeping up with the many people here and at other websites. I guess that, in some ways, I have grown in my internet and Palm usage to just being very task oriented. I go from one task to another, Palm alarm going off, if not a buzz because its silent, and from there I do the next thing.

Lately, I have been feeling the burn of just getting the net out there to be more accessible to all people (not just us who use PDAs with silly web browsers). There is so much information that the net has, and even more that a person (more specifically, a teen) can tap that would unlock another world of potential as a person that is able to contribute to society on a deep and meaningful level. But there are yet so many more people that don't have this accessiblity, and I wish thatin some way that a PDA could be a trigger to enable that accessiblity.

I admit, part of my passion comes from my faith. As a Christian, I want the world to know the saving power of Jesus. And I think that the net is probably one of the best ways to do this (in connected countries that is). I just wish that just as much as I have been a Palm Addict, and been able to spread the gospel of PDAs and life organization, that I could also carry that passion to seeing the hearts of people all around the world love God the way I do. I'd like to see computing resources truely shared to countries where wireless and mobile networks can really be a boon, and at the same time not destroy the social fabric that makes each culture unique. For in that uniqueness, I see a humanity that computing cannot capture in pictures or text, a faith that we really are connected thru Christ, and these are just tools that further show that ability to connect to Him/to each other.

I do not write this as a religious rant though, I write it as one that pats Palm and other mobile device makers on their backs. If not for their ideas about device and life integration, I'd proabably be still losing 4 out of 5 planners, trying to figure my way thru this life. Instead, I have Palm to thank for making a simple to use, and simpler to integrate IIIxe at a time when my GPA was 1.8ish. From the time that I had that device, I was able to unlock the abilities in me that many said that I have; I just never knew how to get there. Now, I am teaching others about how to use Palms; showing others how to organize their lives so that they can realize their dreams. Its my passion. And aside from my faith that moves me, my Palm gives me another reason to come here and write as a Palm Addict. I just hope to one day take it beyond my own world, and show the whole world just how much computing can really change our lives. Read More

Probably more than this relationship that has just closed, has been the knock down revelation that I have no where to go but towards God when it comes to walking in His calling over my life. I find that even now, this new name/idenity/mold of being made into His image is harder to accept than it appeared that it would. I dont know that I am mentally ready, but having a moment where I was knocked off my feet, I must be ready enough for God to push me along.

So who I am is a Levite. I came from that line. I read in Jasher (an extrabiblical) that Levi and his sons did not put their hands to work in Egypt as did the other tribes. I find that interesting. I wonder if that intent to keep their hands holy is what led to they being the only house capable of ministering to the Lord. Even finding out that much is going to be quite interesting, and leaves me with an anticipation of what's next for me and that which God has put my hands towards.

I watched again Mitch Albom's The Five People You Meet in Heaven and it hit me again how connected that we all are. I tried remembering all of the people that I interacted with at various points in my life, and there are just so many. I wonder if this revelation of being as a Levite will change things even more. To me, its interesting. But like when Abram was renamed to Abraham, I find that this name too connects me more to my legacy, than does anything else that has come before. Read More

Just edited the professional section (finally). I have cleaned some things up as well as made it a lot cleaner to navigate. Hope that you all like it.

I have a ton of article links to add and hopefully will do so tonite as I have some time. Other than that, I need to find server space for more portfilio items. From there, things will, or should, look neater there.

And dont worry, pics will come soon. Sooner now that I have a neat scrolling function (in use in the portfolio). Read More

I titled this A Different Look because that is the way that I see the net. I dont see it as just some bogus commerce center that was one a place where the military and higher learning folks got to commune. I see this as a place that for all intents and purposes is an extension of everything "real" that is out there. I think that more often than not, becuase it is a semi-interactive medium - meaning that you interact with the net more than it interacts with you; in counter to newspapers/magazine where there is no interaction, and peerson-to-person where there is nothing but full interaction - because its a semni-interactive medium, you have a lot of uneasiness about how to use this best for the betterment of all people.

I have seen in the short time that the net has been in the main crux of culture that it has changed communication styles, communication patterns, news reporting has gone from borning to at least somewhat hearable (but not necessarly more truthful). There has been a change in the way people shop; the way people want to interact, shoot, there has been a change in the way that people want to address issues such as crime and weather happenings. That's whassup, its good that another medium has come that alleveates some of the issues that plagued earlier media forms. My isuse is where are the CHristians?

Yes, where are the people who are supposed to make a change because they are called by His name. Where is the light on the net. The net is apssive, you have to visit something before it makes an effect. Where is the push to make Christ visitable on the net. I found one "good" Net Church. And it no longer functions. Not enough finances; and too many devils in the pot. Great. But it was so good that it got international exposure if for nothing else that it made a place on the net that changed the way communities thought about how to do church.

Now learning from that, why cannot that happen again. But better. Where is the push to make net churches that push the envelope of interaction, and at the same time leave themeselves accessible to those who might not have the latest and greatest computers. Where is the push to either equip all with copmuters, or at least train those that have one to better represent Christ with the many tool that are on there. You see, that is my view of the net and where it needs to go. It needs to represent Christ as much as possible. Reteatch and the Pharasees, and then loose those who are in bondage to the glitz and glamor of it. I think its poosible. And to my heart, that is where my pursuits on the net will take me until it happens. Read More

Isaiah 49
And he said, It is a light thing that thou shouldest be my servant to raise up the tribes of Jacob, and to restore the preserved of Israel: I will also give thee for a light to the Gentiles, that thou mayest be my salvation unto the end of the earth. Thus saith the LORD, the Redeemer of Israel, and his Holy One, to him whom man despiseth, to him whom the nation abhorreth, to a servant of rulers, Kings shall see and arise, princes also shall worship, because of the LORD that is faithful, and the Holy One of Israel, and he shall choose thee. Thus saith the LORD, In an acceptable time have I heard thee, and in a day of salvation have I helped thee: and I will preserve thee, and give thee for a covenant of the people, to establish the earth, to cause to inherit the desolate heritages; That thou mayest say to the prisoners, Go forth; to them that are in darkness, Shew yourselves. They shall feed in the ways, and their pastures shall be in all high places. They shall not hunger nor thirst; neither shall the heat nor sun smite them: for he that hath mercy on them shall lead them, even by the springs of water shall he guide them. And I will make all my mountains a way, and my highways shall be exalted. Behold, these shall come from far: and, lo, these from the north and from the west; and these from the land of Sinim. Read More

The differeing moments that define my life
Strange how now I am seeing the lines
My heart and mind stretched and read to break
While in my Spirit a new grace breaks forth
I cannot expect this change to be easy
While each moment left rights itself
Preacher, teacher, lover, friend
Limits are nonexistent yet lie therein
Stumped for words during the Son's rising
As the sun sets I become less involved
Moods swing into faithful battles
Another needle in the haystack has pricked my heart
So where now
I dont know
I am not loved because of my battles
Questioned because of my battles won and lost
While in between there is a distinction
And the line in between defines what is and is to come.

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