The script in makings

So it’s still illegal to strangle little kids. Even when they are fucking loud and annoying. I would hate to think I was once a little kid with ADD. I can’t believe I used to act like that. Jeez…..I love them though. They are my nieces and even though I want to shake the living hell out of them…I wouldnt. I just needed to rant I guess.

Anyways, I got home from my sister Heathers earlier. I wasnt able to call tristan last night and I couldnt get on here to let him know why because guess what….her phone was cut off and she has no internet. So I couldnt call anyone to let them know anything. Im sick btw just so everyone knows. I think I have a cold. Im just in an all around bad mood and guess what else…I WANT A FUCKING CIGERETTE. Ok well I feel better now. ?I just need to be cheered up cause Im in no way shape or form gonna make anyone happy with the way Im feeling right now.

I have good news though. I took alot of pictures of my almost 5 month old nephew. He is in 12 month clothes and he isnt even half a year old. I love that kid. <3 He is so peaceful and he loves to laugh. I got to rock him to sleep earlier today and last night. Its amazing since he is so tiny. But it also shows me that I need to adopt an older kid when I get older and settle down. I cant have kids now. I know this and I have finnaly came to terms with that. So I know I will adopt one day but I think if I do it will be an older child. I will never have enough patience for a baby lol. Maybe when I get older my mind will have changed and I will think differently.

I have decided that Im just not gonna let anyone come in the way of mine and tristans relationship. If my parents dont like it they wont have to hear about it. Cause I wont talk to them about it. I really like being with him and I wont things to work out and unfold into something wonderful. So Im gonna do everything in my power to make that happen. He is so sweet.<3

Im starting to feel better the more I write and get stuff out. My mood is starting to lift and Im begining to feel like maybe I just need to be more optimistic today.

The little kids are gonna watch a movie which means peace and quiet. I have my nicotein fix. Im gonna try to get in touch with tristan and then if not imma take a nap. so i guess immas get off here for now. thanks june btw if you read this. lol Imma take your advice

ttyl
<3

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Im also wwriting on my book again.
I have wrote a good bit of a chapter that I am thinking about using in place of the first chapter. I have wrote chapter one already but I think I would rather replace it with the one I am writing now.
I will post the chapter I’m writing If i get enough comments tellin me to
if i dont
then Im keeping it completely a secret
so let me know
tehehe
<3